Well, well, well..... looks who's back. After almost exactly a year in hiatus, I'm back to blogging!!
I find it interesting to look at how easily other people's opinions can sometimes sway what I do. After a few mindless comments, pertaining to the 'abuse of the internet to share of simple, useless things that no one cares about', and it wasn't even directed at me, I told myself that blogging about the little happenings in my life were silly. So, I stopped.
It's funny. I hadn't realized this. Until I noticed that I felt the need to express myself. I would think about making an entry, and would then tell myself, 'no, people don't care'. And I've had an amazing revolution. I don't care if people don't care!!
I enjoy sharing, and I enjoy writing. AND, if one other person finds it interesting, BONUS!!
Where I'm most inspired to share these days is in the area of health and wellness. I'm fascinated by all the ooey-gooey layers as I watch my own choices, thoughts and ideas transpire into my way of being, out in the world. I'd like to use the word hypocrite, and at the same time, it seems much too harsh. However, I say (and think) one thing.... and sometimes my actions convey the complete opposite!!! I think this is important to share because I know I'm not alone! And I don't have to be so hard on myself.
Most mornings, I wake up feeling positive and clear-headed. I decide to make choices that promote wellness. And, I tell myself that if other thoughts creep in and cloud these good decisions, I will have the were-with-all to stay committed to do what I set out to do.
HA!! By the end of a long day:
dinner = cereal
no junk food = a batch of peanut butter cookies
a good night's rest = extended time on my computer
And boy, oh boy does the self-talk turn ugly!!!
Honesty (and getting REAL) has played a huge part in my understanding of 'self' these days. What am I really thinking. What am I really feeling. Really?? It is a relief to finally give myself permission to inwardly express what is really going on, leaving the 'shoulds' out of my self-talk. And what I've noticed is that there is always something else that's missing. It could be that I'm missing my long-distance boyfriend, I haven't practiced yoga in a few days, I haven't made time to write in my journal, I haven't had a good, long chat with my sister, etc., etc. I can see that I go inwards and treat myself badly when I haven't made time for ME. For so long the punishment has continued because I haven't recognized what is happening.
I'm like a little kid who's misbehaving because he/she needs some love and attention!!
So, my commitment to myself is to notice when I'm feeling less than in-love with myself, and ask what it's really about. Instead of getting mad at the behaviour, I can take a closer look. Where am I lacking in some way, and what can I do to fix it?
Truth be told... I can't promise that this realization will curb the cookie making at 10pm.
I find it interesting to look at how easily other people's opinions can sometimes sway what I do. After a few mindless comments, pertaining to the 'abuse of the internet to share of simple, useless things that no one cares about', and it wasn't even directed at me, I told myself that blogging about the little happenings in my life were silly. So, I stopped.
It's funny. I hadn't realized this. Until I noticed that I felt the need to express myself. I would think about making an entry, and would then tell myself, 'no, people don't care'. And I've had an amazing revolution. I don't care if people don't care!!
I enjoy sharing, and I enjoy writing. AND, if one other person finds it interesting, BONUS!!
Where I'm most inspired to share these days is in the area of health and wellness. I'm fascinated by all the ooey-gooey layers as I watch my own choices, thoughts and ideas transpire into my way of being, out in the world. I'd like to use the word hypocrite, and at the same time, it seems much too harsh. However, I say (and think) one thing.... and sometimes my actions convey the complete opposite!!! I think this is important to share because I know I'm not alone! And I don't have to be so hard on myself.
Most mornings, I wake up feeling positive and clear-headed. I decide to make choices that promote wellness. And, I tell myself that if other thoughts creep in and cloud these good decisions, I will have the were-with-all to stay committed to do what I set out to do.
HA!! By the end of a long day:
dinner = cereal
no junk food = a batch of peanut butter cookies
a good night's rest = extended time on my computer
And boy, oh boy does the self-talk turn ugly!!!
Honesty (and getting REAL) has played a huge part in my understanding of 'self' these days. What am I really thinking. What am I really feeling. Really?? It is a relief to finally give myself permission to inwardly express what is really going on, leaving the 'shoulds' out of my self-talk. And what I've noticed is that there is always something else that's missing. It could be that I'm missing my long-distance boyfriend, I haven't practiced yoga in a few days, I haven't made time to write in my journal, I haven't had a good, long chat with my sister, etc., etc. I can see that I go inwards and treat myself badly when I haven't made time for ME. For so long the punishment has continued because I haven't recognized what is happening.
I'm like a little kid who's misbehaving because he/she needs some love and attention!!
So, my commitment to myself is to notice when I'm feeling less than in-love with myself, and ask what it's really about. Instead of getting mad at the behaviour, I can take a closer look. Where am I lacking in some way, and what can I do to fix it?
Truth be told... I can't promise that this realization will curb the cookie making at 10pm.
